Chapter 24: Trying to Forget

Should I keep writing this story? Do you guys still like it ? :-)

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I stood up and strode purposely out the door, out into the cool corridor and then I let loose. I punched the wall, not caring whether I damaged it or damaged myself for that matter. I desperately wanted to claim her as my own yet everyone was hell bent on stopping me. It wasn't just sex this time it was more something I couldn't quite grasp yet but I would, eventually. I stopped with my fist and began kicking into the same wall treating it as though it were a real person, I prayed no one would come out here because I wasn't sure if I could stop myself from turning on them. I was jealous, angry, upset, all the awful emotions I hated were pent up inside of me, I picked up stick and decided to try to express them in the only way I knew how.

I must of been out there was at least two hours, trying to find that release that I knew I desperately needed. I couldn't let a girl affect my game. I hard worked too hard for this and getting involved could permanently harm my career.

I figured I was probably the last one here but as I made my way back into the locker room I saw Max sitting at my stall holding a piece of paper in one hand and he moved his gaze to mine.

''Are you fucking crazy?'' He started, waving the piece of paper in my face. I tried to grab it from his hands. ''Coaches daughter? You have to pick the most off limits girl in Pittsburgh.'' He carried on and threw the white folded sheet to the ground. I picked it up and looked at it. It read. We can make this work. 7pm in my room, come in through the window. -Jen. I smiled but as I saw Max my smile quickly disappeared.

''She's just a girl that I can't seem to get out of my head,'' I said casually changing and getting my stuff ready for going back to my apartment.

''Man, I knew there was something up, but seriously you had to pick her? You need to forget about her, you're coming out with us tonight and we're going to Diesel to find you a nice girl,'' He smirked at me. Maybe he was right, I should forget about her. I think.

''You don't go to Diesel to find a nice girl, only dirty girls go to Diesel,'' I said trying to get in the mood but something in the pit of my stomach told me this was a bad idea.

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Jen's POV

I left him that note hoping- not praying that he would find it and come tonight. I walked down to get some dinner and sat beside Liz, everyone else had eaten at least an hour before but I did the usual teenage girl thing and stayed in my room and sulked. I sat down next to her and she gave me a small smile. I bet she was going to tell me she could relate to me.

''I can see where your coming from but it's for the best Jen. Anyone but Jordan Staal, he's got the worst reputation. Always picking up girls, your too young to be in a relationship anyway, you should be having fun,'' She was trying to plead my father's case but I could see that she was a little more on my side than him.

''I know, I know. It was really only a school girl crush anyway,'' I said trying to make myself believe the words that were coming out of my mouth. She was right though, after Carter I told myself I wouldn't let myself get so close to a boy ever again. I should be having fun and that's exactly what I intended to do.