Chapter 27: Beautiful Disaster

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''Shit.'' I whispered as Jordan giggled quietly beside me. He sure as hell didn't realize how much trouble I could potentially be in right now. Men.

''I've warned you about this Jennifer, I told you to stay away from him.'' The voice continued, the sound of it wasn't instantly recognizable.

A figure started to form from out of the dark of the night. Like a man coming over the top of a sand dune in the middle of the grainy desert. Blurry at first. I was surprised by the small frame, knowing my dad had an overpowering 6''4 stance. I heard a ridiculous laugh as the body came closer and then it bent over, putting its hands to its mouth in a bid to hide the sound. I walked closer and saw that in no way shape or form was this my father. Darcy - I should of known.

''What the fuck was that?'' I said with a low volume, shouting would definitely of awoken the sleeping giant that was inside the house.

''You should have seen your face. Man, you were shit scared.'' She managed out between laughs. I was mad but I had to admit I could definitely see the funny side. ''I don't have time for this right now, I need to get him home, go back to bed!'' I said whilst pointing to a still chuckling Jordan.

''M'kay. Be safe.'' She said with a smirk and cheeky wink. I'd get her later.

I walked slowly back over to the car where Jordan was now sort of slouched up against it. He reached out to pull me into him as I neared. I wasn't having any of it.

''Get in the car.'' I said calmly but assertively. It was the only tone of voice he'd listen to. ''But-'' he started. ''Now!'' I growled, the look on his face changed to one of hurt. I didn't feel bad - surprisingly.

Our journey to his apartment was another one made from out of memory only. As soon as he was seated in the SUV he drifted into dreamland, his head rested against the window. Mouth slightly open - snoring like a little piglet. I tried to recall the time he had taken me back to his place, making my way to Mellon and trying to trace my steps from there. It was tricky seeing as the time he had driven me there, I had spent it teasing him. Eventually and because of my magnificent memory we reached his apartment block.

I got of the car and made my way to his side and pulled open the door. He was startled and would have fallen straight out had he of not been strapped in.

''Hey there,'' He grinned lazily as his eyes focused on me. The same sparkle as ever in them.

''Don't hey there me, get out!'' I was mad. I didn't need this, I should of just left him to stagger home or more than likely pass out my lawn and let my dad find him in the morning. But I cared and that was my downfall.

I could see I had struck a nerve, even in his drunken state Jordan could tell I meant business. I shut the door of the SUV saving him from having to turn and more than likely send his world spinning. I got under his arm and took as much of his weight as I possibly could. Thank goodness he has an elevator. Once we were inside I knew I couldn't let him slide to the floor because I'd have absolutely no chance of getting his 220 pound body vertical again.

The machine stopped and the ridiculously sexy voice of a woman announced that this was the 5th floor. I could only assume this was installed to make this building more appealing to bachelors like Jordan himself.

As we reached his door labelled 5A I began searching his jacket pockets for his keys. Managing to find them, we stumbled into his apartment. I kicked the door closed behind me for which Jordan tried to give me some mumbled lecture about paint work. Like I care.

He flopped down onto the bed where I used all my strength to undress him while his completely wasted hands tried to wander my body. I looked up at his face and saw that infuriating smirk again. Even while drunk he still knew exactly what to do piss me off.

Once I had stripped him to his tacky playboy boxers and tucked him in, I sat down on the edge of the bed, took one last look at him and those eyes that bared his soul.

''I wuv you.'' He said as he gingerly tucked a piece of hair behind my ear that had been resting over one my eyes. I smiled gently at him. ''Tell me when your sober,'' I replied and walked out of room, chuckling a little at his attempt at being cute. It didn't suit him, he just wasn't the 'cute' type of guy. I knew in the morning he'd have no recollection of any of this.

The drive home was smooth and my mind mulled over everything that had become of the night. I wasn't really all that sure of what this meant for Jordan and I but I knew that I'd make sure we talked tomorrow, I also knew that I needed to define what we are because right now I really have no idea and it was really starting to mess with my head.

I figured I'd use the front door this since I had my keys so I quietly opened the door and shut it ever so silently behind me. Creeping across the floor in a stealth like way.

''You better have a good explanation for this.'' A voice said and I was definitely sure it wasn't Darcy this time.

''I do.'' I replied quietly.

''Go on then,''

''I think I might love him, you know just a little bit.'' I giggled and leaned back against the door. I smiled to myself.

''Tell him to come over for dinner tomorrow. I'll be the judge of whether he's good enough!'' He said gruffly. Well thats a change of tune. Yesterday I was banned from him now he's aloud to come to dinner. Talk about giving me whiplash with his mood swings. Thoughts of disaster filled my head, so many things could go wrong tomorrow night. Sweet Jesus . . . . . . . .

Chapter 26: Diesel

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Jordan's POV

I was right when I said that only dirty girls go diesel. As soon as we walked into the club, the amount of women throwing themselves at us was unbelievable. Blondes, brunettes, red heads. You name it they all swarmed to us like wasp. Thats exactly what they were though, they wanted us so they could be with us, sting us and take all our money. Trust me, I've fallen for it too many times or should I say too many maxed out credit cards.

''Hey man, wanna get the beers in?'' Sid shouted over the noise of the club before being pulled on the dance floor but some cute dark haired girl.

I made my through the crowds of people looking to have a good time, in more ways than one, if you catch my drift. The bar was pretty much empty what with everyone dancing. I was still deciding whether I even wanted to drink when Todd, the barman came over.

''Bad night?'' He chucked lightly. ''What can I get you?'' He continued.

''You have no idea,'' I groaned. ''5 beers,'' What the hell. ''Ughh, a couple of shots of tequila as well,'' Fuck it. He gave me a toothy grin.

''I'll get someone to bring them over, go enjoy yourself man,'' I knew I always liked this guy.

I ended up sitting in booth with Geno and TK while everyone else danced with the group of girls that had collected around our area of the club. Geno usually got in about different girl but since Oksana had caught him with his hand in the cookie jar he had been staying away whereas TK who would never cheat on his girlfriend, Kelcey just sat and talked with whoever was around him. He was good guy. I kept checking my watch and saw that it was now 2am, I guess meeting Jen was completely out of the question. I instantly felt guilty. I'd probably hurt her. A lot.

Before long a blonde haired girl with massive tits that were basically hanging out of her top slid into the booth beside me, giving me seductive looks and batting her eyelashes at me. Don't get me wrong she was hot but I just wasn't in the mood.

''I'm Katy,'' She drawled with a southern accent. She smiled and I figured if I give her as little attention as possible she'd move onto Geno. I was wrong.

''Come dance with me,'' She giggled as she stood up grabbed my hand attempted to pull me up. I probably could of just sat back down but the way she swayed her hips made me think twice and I'm a guy after all, we can't help it.

We started of facing each other, her eyes constantly drifting to my lips but there was no way in hell she was getting anything from me. I'm guy and I actually can't believe I just thought that. I'm giving up sex? Yep because I only want Jen. Pretty soon 'Katy' turned and shoved her ass into my crotch, putting her arms around my neck. I instinctively grabbed onto her hips pulling her closer, which I'm pretty sure gave her the wrong idea because she turned smacked her lips on me. I pushed her off me and she looked pretty angry.

''You were giving me so many come on's,'' She screamed at me. Crazy Bitch.

''Are you kidding me?'' I grabbed my jacket and walked straight out of the club, the warm summer air was making me feel even more drunk than I already was. Usually I could hold my drink but after 7 beers and 4 shots of tequila, I was definitely feeling the effects. The only person I could think of was Jen. Her face kept flashing across my brain. I should of gone to the house and spoke to her. In my drunken state I figured hailing a cab and going to her house was a great idea.

The driver dropped me off and I stumbled around to where I could remember vaguely where her window was. I picked up some stones on the way round and began throwing them at her window whilst shouting her name. I saw the window rise and her head poke out.

''I NEEEEDDD YOUUU!'' I shouted as I saw the annoyed look on her face.

''Wait there, do not move.'' I watched her climb out the window and then navigate her way expertly down the tall tree that overhangs onto the back of the house. I couldn't help but smile and the shorts and tank top she wearing. As she walked closer to me I could tell she was angry.

''What the fuck are you doing here?'' On closer inspection shes not wearing a bra and it's very cold outside. Wow, I'm drunk.

''I wanted to see you,'' I tried to give her my best puppy dog eyes but I wasn't sure they would work.

''Look, I'm not doing this right now with you as drunk as you are. I'm taking you home.'' She sounded like my mom but she really didn't look like her. My drunk self laughed internally.

I followed her to where her dads car was parked.'' Don't you need keys?'' I asked. ''I came prepared.'' She smiled softly.

''I always do too,'' I grinned at her and winked.

''Ughhhhh, just get in.'' She growled. I've never heard her angry before, it's sexy.

''Where do you think you two are going?'' A voice from the darkness boomed. Ohh shit.

Chapter 25: Chocolate On Chocolate

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''JENNNN,'' I heard my name being called as I sat on my bed, my knees brought up with my laptop sitting on them. Anytime I was angry I'd read MLIA, some of the posts on there really brought my spirits up but not this time.

''I'm coming!'' I shouted. I moved out from under my quilt and slipped off my shorts and pulled on a pair of sweats as I felt how cold the house had become.

I ran down the stairs and into the kitchen where I noticed Bill Guerin sitting at the table with a girl who seemed about my age on the other side of him. Please let that be his daughter. I felt myself laugh internally. I loved my private jokes with myself.

''Hey sweetie, come sit down. This is Darcy, Bill's daughter,'' Ohh thank God. ''Since Bill came to the team, Darcy hasn't met many people her own age, we thought you two could hang out.'' The girl was good looking with deep red hair and pretty brown eyes. The red obviously wasn't her natural color but it suited her. She let out a small smile, she looked just as annoyed at her parents as I was, it was like they were trying to set us up on a date.

''Do you want to come up to my room, maybe stay tonight?'' I knew I had previously arranged to meet Jordan but the more I thought about it the more far fetched it sounded. Romeo and Juliet we were not. I figured I should get to know this girl, she seems nice enough.

''Yeah sure,'' She looked at Bill for permission to which he nodded and grinned. Following me up into my room, she sat down on bed and sighed.

''I'm so sorry. My dad dragged me here and I didn't know what to do,'' She started cautiously, obviously trying to work me out as I was her.

''Don't worry about it, I take it you've heard a bout my escapades then,'' I chuckled a little, trying to make a little light of my situation.

''Omg, Jordan Staal! How did you get him?'' She grinned and laughed with me. ''It sucks what your dads doing,'' She looked at me with sympathy.

''Yeah it does. I feel like such a puck bunny saying this but he truly is the hottest boy I've ever seen.'' I started feeling like a normal seventeen year old girl again but I still held a small hope that he would turn up.

As 7pm came and went my hopes started to diminish. Darcy saw my mood began to falter and dragged the truth out from me. ''Aww babes, he's just a guy. A very very stupid one for not turning up as well,'' She tried to make me feel better. ''I bet it's not even that big anyway,'' I pulled away from her and she winked at me. We both fell about the floor laughing. She was certainly growing on me.

''Lets go get two men who'll never let us down,'' She ran into the kitchen, making herself at home and pulled out a tub of Ben & Jerry's from the freezer. Picking up two spoons from the draining board she sat down at the table and pulled off the top. I hesitated before sitting down, taking a spoon and diving straight in.

Before long we had gotten a few bars of chocolate and began dipping it into the ice cream. ''Mmm, chocolate on chocolate, that is so good,'' I said my mouth full of the sugary treat. It's true junk food can make you feel way better.

The rest of the night was spent leaving post on Jordan Staal message boards about what a douche he is, watching dvd's and chatting about boys. Although saying Jordan's a douche doesn't mean I really believe it, I mean it made me feel better about him not bothering to turn up but really it still hurts.

''Jen?'' Darcy said as we lay in bed trying to sleep.

''Yeah?'' I answered.

''Do you think you love him?''

''I'm not sure.'' It was the million dollar question.

As I drifted in and out of sleep, it stayed with me. Did I love him? What is love? I'm too young for all of that stuff, I knew I didn't want to be without him but love? Really? I managed to get into a deep sleep until I heard a tapping at my window. Someone through stones at it possibly?

Tap

Tap

Tap

It was 4am. I hoped it was who I wanted it to be. I prayed and walked to the window, sliding it up. And poking my head to inspect where the noise was coming from.

''JENNNN,'' I heard for the second time today. ''I NEEEEEDDD YOU!'' He stood below my window shouting so loudly I was sure it would wake the whole house up and I was also very sure about something else. He was drunk.

Chapter 24: Trying to Forget

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I stood up and strode purposely out the door, out into the cool corridor and then I let loose. I punched the wall, not caring whether I damaged it or damaged myself for that matter. I desperately wanted to claim her as my own yet everyone was hell bent on stopping me. It wasn't just sex this time it was more something I couldn't quite grasp yet but I would, eventually. I stopped with my fist and began kicking into the same wall treating it as though it were a real person, I prayed no one would come out here because I wasn't sure if I could stop myself from turning on them. I was jealous, angry, upset, all the awful emotions I hated were pent up inside of me, I picked up stick and decided to try to express them in the only way I knew how.

I must of been out there was at least two hours, trying to find that release that I knew I desperately needed. I couldn't let a girl affect my game. I hard worked too hard for this and getting involved could permanently harm my career.

I figured I was probably the last one here but as I made my way back into the locker room I saw Max sitting at my stall holding a piece of paper in one hand and he moved his gaze to mine.

''Are you fucking crazy?'' He started, waving the piece of paper in my face. I tried to grab it from his hands. ''Coaches daughter? You have to pick the most off limits girl in Pittsburgh.'' He carried on and threw the white folded sheet to the ground. I picked it up and looked at it. It read. We can make this work. 7pm in my room, come in through the window. -Jen. I smiled but as I saw Max my smile quickly disappeared.

''She's just a girl that I can't seem to get out of my head,'' I said casually changing and getting my stuff ready for going back to my apartment.

''Man, I knew there was something up, but seriously you had to pick her? You need to forget about her, you're coming out with us tonight and we're going to Diesel to find you a nice girl,'' He smirked at me. Maybe he was right, I should forget about her. I think.

''You don't go to Diesel to find a nice girl, only dirty girls go to Diesel,'' I said trying to get in the mood but something in the pit of my stomach told me this was a bad idea.

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Jen's POV

I left him that note hoping- not praying that he would find it and come tonight. I walked down to get some dinner and sat beside Liz, everyone else had eaten at least an hour before but I did the usual teenage girl thing and stayed in my room and sulked. I sat down next to her and she gave me a small smile. I bet she was going to tell me she could relate to me.

''I can see where your coming from but it's for the best Jen. Anyone but Jordan Staal, he's got the worst reputation. Always picking up girls, your too young to be in a relationship anyway, you should be having fun,'' She was trying to plead my father's case but I could see that she was a little more on my side than him.

''I know, I know. It was really only a school girl crush anyway,'' I said trying to make myself believe the words that were coming out of my mouth. She was right though, after Carter I told myself I wouldn't let myself get so close to a boy ever again. I should be having fun and that's exactly what I intended to do.

Chapter 23: Rage

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Jordan’s POV

I walked into practice the next morning with a strange feeling, something in the pit of my stomach. I was sure coach would pull me aside at one point after what had happened yesterday. I tried calling Jen but to no avail. It seems so cliché - the hockey player falling for his coach’s daughter. Would it ever work though? I mean I’d be away a lot and let’s face it after the summer she’ll be going to college in a different state. There’ll be new guys, new temptations and new friends – who would really want to be tied down in a relationship?

All this is buzzing through my brain while I’m getting ready, I’m so engrossed in my own little conversation in my head that I don’t even hear the guys calling my name.

‘’Hey Staalsy, ‘’ I hear Max calling behind me.

‘’Hey guys,’’ I turn around to find them all staring at me.

‘’Thank God man, we’ve been standing here for like the last hour and you’ve been pretty much ignoring us, what’s up man?’’ Max says a curious look on his face. I guess I have been kinda distant lately, usually Max is my partner in crime. We get up to some hilarious shit sometimes – like the time with the fireworks and the tequila and – I think we should leave that for another occasion.

‘’Nothing, let’s just get out on the ice.’’ I replied, not really knowing what I would tell them if they pressed me any further.

I knew I was playing pretty shit right now but I this practice was different, I was taking all my rage out and playing intensely. I could hear the whispers around me but I wasn’t fazed, I never was. Although one set of eyes never left me – Coach’s

‘’Alright boys, that’s enough for today. Go get changed!’’ He moved towards the exit of the rink but stopped in front of me. ‘’Not you Staal,’’. I stopped immediately, we were about the same height and I knew what was coming.

‘’You ever so much as lay a finger on her again so help me, I’ll fucking kill you. I told her the same, she’s got everything going for her and she doesn’t need someone like you messing it up for her. All I’m saying is think about her. You got that?’’ I wasn’t about to argue with someone who could destroy my career. ‘’Yeah,’’ Then I skated away.

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I watched them from my stall. He walked over to her and started flirting with her. Something that he doesn't normally do. I was surprised but I couldn't do anything. I wanted so much to claim her as my own. She stood there and smiled at him, her eyes glittering. I watched Coach watching them, he didn't say a word. He usually didn't date at all but I could see the attraction. I felt it coming, bubbling up inside of me like a pot of boiling water . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

Chapter 22: Tearing Us Apart

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As soon as we heard the voice we both pulled our lips apart and snapped our heads to the side to view who was interrupting our session of pure passion. Jordan was still pressed fully on top of me and I could feel his hard erection pressing into my leg. I tried to suppress a smile but I could feel a grin spreading on my face that was until my eyes reached who was standing in the centre of the room. My dad. His right arm clutching his obviously painful ribs. He didn't shout or scream but his eyes were filled with rage. He walked over to me, grabbed me and pulled me to my feet. Wincing as he did so.

He said not a word. Once we had left the locker room he marched forward shakily in front of me, I followed - too scared to do anything else. I hadn't known him for a long time but still he was my father and I wasn't about to disrespect him further.

''I can't drive. You better get in and take us straight home.'' It was a statement. I could feel the coldness in his eyes as he looked at me.

I pulled into the drive of the perfect house and watched as he moved as quickly as his battered body could. He motioned for me to come into the living room. I stood in the centre of the room, unsure of what to do or say. He sat down on the white fabric couch that none of the children were allowed to have food near, sighing as he did so. His eyes locking with mine. I had disappointed him, I knew it.

''You are not to see him again. If I ever see you two alone again, God help me. In a group you may socialise with each other but if he so much as touches you, I'll kill him. You are to cut all contact with him. Delete his number, everything. Is that clear?'' He looked at me and I knew I had no choice but to obey him. If I didn't I could see him cutting all contact with me.

''Yes, I'm sorry.'' I said weakly I tore my gaze away from him and dropped my eyes to floor. What will I do? There's no way in hell I can't not see him. I can't do that to my dad either, he's just a guy, you'll get through it.

''You are not to leave this house without my permission. You must tell me where your going and exactly what time you'll be back at. In some situations I'll take you and bring you back.'' He spoke up once more.

''Okay,'' A squeak was the only sound I could muster.

''I'm only doing this because I love you,'' He looked defiant like he'd somehow won a massive victory. ''You can go now,'' He said at last.

I ran up the stairs unsure of how I felt. I threw myself on my bed. That's when the tears came. I buried my face in my pillow. Please let this be a very bad dream.

Chapter 21: Caught Out

Hey guys, sorry for the very long wait. I needed the help of a friend to get myself back on track so this chapter is written by Jessie and myself, I really want to thank her for inspiring me to continue and get my imagination running again. Thank you so much for the comments, please keep them coming :-) Once again, thank you Jessie !

Jen's POV

After lying in bed with him for a little bit longer, the sun beaming in my eyes was more than a little irritating and I climbed out of bed and made my way toward the bathroom to shower. After 20 minutes of explaining to Jordan that it would be a singular thing, he finally left me alone, but not before he threw a little pouty face my way. I rolled my eyes at him before shutting the door in his face, only to hear him huff and then leave the room.

I stand under the hot mist of water, letting it relieve any of the previous tension I had felt the night before. I must have been enjoying myself too much, because the next thing I know Jordan is pounding on the door, signaling that it's time to go to morning skate. I just out of the shower quickly, wrapping a towel around myself and opening the bathroom door to find his room vacant. I walk over to his dresser, grab a t-shirt and pair of sweats before quickly putting them on, picking up my clothes from the day before and walking out to find Jordan.

Jordy's POV

I wait as patiently as I can for her by the door, and after she comes walking out I'm almost completely annoyed at myself for beind angry at her. She has clothes on and her hair is still soaking wet, not a trace of make up to be found, but as she smiles and makes her way to me, I can't help but realize how naturally beautiful she is. She catches me starring at her and just smirks up at me as she goes through the door I open for her. I grab my bag and follow her out to my car.

"Do you want to go to the arena with me or do you want to be dropped off at your house?" I ask, looking over at how peaceful she looks as she stares out the window, looking at the city through amused eyes.

"Drop me off at my house. I'll get a change of clothes and then meet you there." And with that, we ride in silence. Before she climbs out of the car she gives me a peck on the cheek and then runs inside, probably in an attempt to not be seen in my clothes.

Jen's POV

I run quickly inside hoping that if I make it up to my room fast enough Liz won't catch me and interogate me about the night before. I make it up the stairs and onto the top landing before I hear her call my name. Damn, so close.

''Liz, I'm just here to pick up a few things and then I'm heading to morning skate to see what happens at those things.'' I say whilst watching her climb half way up the staircase. She looks my attire up and down and smiles at me knowingly.

''Okay sweetheart, just be carefull,'' She says, I'm confused by what she means but part of me think it's a piece of advice.

I continue on into my room and begin pulling various pieces of clothing from my dresser. No, no, no, eww thats ugly. I start questioning why I ever bought most of my clothes. Finally deciding on a pair of jean shorts, a white flowing tank top and pair of silver gladiator sandles. I'll probably be freezing but it's too hot outside to wear anything remotely covering. Running back down the stairs I had sprinted up not ten minutes ago. I grab the keys to the black SUV that nobody seems to use and try to navigate my way to the arena using only my memory of the drive from the previous day.

I'm outside. I type and send via cell phone.

Wait at the door. I'm just coming, we're the first ones here ;). He replies making me smile at the little wink face.

I gasp as I feel a pair of strong arms wrap around my waist from behind and pull me in to the arena. I turn around once I hear the door slam closed, a pair of crystal blue eyes looking back at me.

''Come on,'' He says grabbing my wrist and pulling down the corridor making me out of breath but at the same time curious as to why he's in such a rush. He pushes open the door to the dressing room and moves me to what I can only assume is his stall. He sits down in front of it bringing me on to his lap, momentarily stopping to make sure I'm keeping up with all of this. I feel a smile spread across my face before he grabs my face with both hands kissing me with such a force that I see stars. My hands immediately go to his hair running my fingers through his blonde locks. His lips move to my neck making me let out a small moan as I feel his hands move their way up my top. He pushes me down onto the bench getting on top of me. I love the feeling of his strong muscular chest pressed against me.

''What the hells going on here!'' A voice says.

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Chapter 20: Bliss

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Jen's POV

I awoke to the sound of Jordan's steady breathing. It was peaceful and I decided I would just lay in the position I had been in all night, with my head on his chest and his arm drapped around my shoulder. I listened to his heart beating, his chest rising in and out, I figured I could get used to just laying like this every morning. I was looking out the large window and saw the sky reach it's lightest point. It must of only been around 5am. I didn't care. I felt my eyelids getting heavy and once again allowed sleep to overcome my body and mind.

I could sense his eyes on me and I felt him stroke my hair, this was another thing I could also get very used too. I gently open my eyes and saw the sun blazing through the window, how I hadn't woken up before now I'll never know. I moved my head to look him square in the eyes, I saw him smile at me and felt myself grinning back at him.

Jordan's POV

I couldn't sleep any longer. The sun was shining as bright as I have seen it in a long time, I feel the heat on my face and normally I would get up and close the curtains but I decided I didn't want to risk waking her up. She was so calm and to be quite honest I was enjoying just having her cuddled into me. I looked at her intently, dragging my eyes over every contour of her beautiful face. The way her eyelids fluttered when I ran my hand down her spine, how her lips pursed gently together as she slept and I couldn't help but think I never wanted this to ever end. If only things were as simple as that. I scanned over the events of the night before in my mind, I could feel my blood boiling as I thought about him hitting her, even the image of him laying a single finger on her made me want to kill him. She opened her eyes and I could see the sparkle in them, surely nobody would ever want to destroy that?

''What?''She said smiling at me in a way I've never seen before.

''Nothing, Do you think your dad will go mad when he finds out about us?''The thought popping into my head suddenly.

Jen's POV

When he asked about what my dad would think about us, I wasn't really sure what to say because I hadn't really thought about until now. I guess I didn't think we'd need to worry about it. I was sure however that telling him just when he was ill probably wasn't the best idea.

''I don't think we should tell him just yet, I don't want to stress him out. And Jordan, thank you,'' I said quietly. I was thankful. Last night when I threw myselt at him and he rejected me, I wasn't hurt but infact I felt like he respected me, isn't that how your supposed to feel?

New Story :-)

Okay, so I've posted the first chapter of my new story :-) I should get chapter 2 up tomorow morning. I'm really excited about it, to be honest the idea came to me when I was eating dinner lol. I had all these different scenarios in my head and then suddenly something popped into my head and i'm like ''Wow! I love this idea.''. So I decided to act on it and the first chapter is just an insight but any comments are very helpful :-)

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Chapter 19: A New Point Of View

Taylor's POV

I walk carefully down the stairs, placing a foot delicately on each one so as not to make a noise and wake anyone up. I had been laying silently on my bed for over two hours and had come to the conclusion that I wouldn't be getting any sleep tonight. I was waiting for her to come through the front door, Jen I mean. For the past few days she's been so distant and cold, it's so unlike her. Jen and I had been friends for years but we never quite got to the stage of being best friends up until a few months ago. I'd heard she'd been burgled and the guy had attacked her but it still gave me no reason as to why her and that little slut, Francesca had stopped talking. Jen always told me that they'd 'grown apart' or that they'd 'changed'. Something that mistified me more was why her and Carter had broken up. They always seemed like the perfect couple, always walking hand in hand, kissing and cuddling. Jen had always been a flirt, I noticed from afar that she was always with a different guy, all of them handsome and extremely wealthy but then Carter came along and whisked her off her feet, treating her like a princess. They fitted like two pieces of a puzzle slotted together. I guess it wasn't perfect after all. I ran into Jen in Starbucks one unusually sunny February afternoon. We got talking and somehow we've been virtually like sisters ever since. After the 'incident' at school both our parents decided we should get away and Jen expressed her wish to see her father. I suppose you already know this part, she met the guy. I could tell straight away by the look in her eyes that she wanted him and what Jen wants, Jen gets.

I walked over to the kettle, checking the amount of water left in it and pushing down the small black button that turned it on. I waited and made my cup of coffee, I'd always hated tea and the aroma of coffee was something of an afrodisiac to me. That was another thing, Jen was always getting desirable looks from men and well, I was just the friend. I was pretty but next to Jen I was always coming second best. Although when we walked into practice that day I locked eyes with a guy and do you know something? I think he may have actually looked at me as more than just the friend of the beautiful girl. I hope I get to see him again. Ohh, stop dreaming, he was probably only being nice. I sat down at the table and starting thinking and then came the worry. I was worried about Jen, for the past few days I had just hung around the house with the kids, playing games and taking the dogs for walks, kind of like a proper family although I knew I didn't really belong. I had only heard Jen come in once and that was the night of the accident and then I heard shouting and the front door slamming. I wanted to make sure she was okay but I knew she'd come to me in time to talk about things. I can only hope its soon.

I can't get this boy out of my head, I only remember his eyes. And to be honest they were brown and plain but they just spoke to me . . . . . . .

Small note: I wanted to bring Taylor back into it, but I'm not sure how it will go. I'll see what happens :-) Again thanks for all the comments :-D

Sorry it keeps squishing all my paragraphs together :-.

Help Wanted :-) . . .

Just a few questions, I'd be grateful if you could answer them but no pressure if you don't lol :-) Just so I can work on my writing and improve it :-) Ok, so are you guys enjoying 'Fate Or Just Coincidence' ? Is there anything you maybe don't like or is there something that you guys love? Also who is still reading 'Fate Or Just Coincidence?

I've said before that I've started another story, but I cannot decide who the main male character is lol :-( I'd rather do it about one of the Pens but I would definately think about writing it about someone else, so is there anyone you'd really like me to make it about?

One last thing, one of my friend has just started writing her own story so have a look. She's just posted the first chapter and it's brilliant :-)

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Chapter 18: I'll Talk. You Listen

When he said ''Lets do this the right way'', I automatically assumed he'd meant sex, but after whispering in my ear telling me how beautiful I was he stopped. He looked at me. Gathered me into him and sat down, pulling me onto his lap. I felt his heart racing. I burried my head deeper into his chest wanting to feel this secure for the rest of my life.





''Tell me what happened, everything. I need to know. If we're going to be together there can be no secrets. Not one.'' He said gently as he stroked my hair in a soothing rhythm, front to back.



It was simple. I talked, he listened. As I spoke I felt his grip on me tighten, his heart beating even faster as I continued. When something was troubling me, I turned to sex. When I was with Carter, he wouldn't question my motives. Using my stress as his ecstasy, he knew if something was wrong but never once did he stop to ask me, I came to the conclusion that he was using me. This was the first time I had ever really talked with anyone, and I felt release. A feeling I'd only ever gotten with sex before now. This was new and I was enjoying the feeling. I let my emotions flow out as words not actions.

''What do you want to do about it?'' There it was, the question I knew was coming but I hadn't had the chance to think about. I knew Carter deserved to be punished for what he did and I knew that if he hurt someone else, I'd be plagued with guilt. But on the other hand, I wasn't sure if I could handle a court case, everything being dragged out in public, our old relationship on show for the world to see.

''I need to think about it. It'll take me some time but eventually I'll make a decision. If I do decide to take him to court, promise you'll support me? It's alot to ask but -'' I was stopped mid sentence by Jordan's lips on mine. I knew he'd be there for me.

''Right now I want to kill him. No man should ever beat a woman. It's just wrong, very wrong. If you decide to go through with it, you'll always have me.'' He said in a deep calm voice. It was conforting, to know I had his support.

I moved my head to look him straight in the eyes. I wanted to sleep with him, not in the sexual sense but I wanted to go to sleep with his arms wrapped around me and wake up the next morning still with him next me. This was also something new, beforehand waking up with Chuck made me feel a little sad, probably because I thought this was what my life was going to like. But I knew with Jordan there was a world of endless possibilities.

I unraveled myself from his arms and undressed. Sliding onto the king size bed, I pulled back the maroon coloured bed sheets and climbed in beside Jordan who had cheekily gotten in before me, I immediately felt him pull me into him. I was safe. Although the question still bore into my mind. What was Carter's motive for coming here?




Just a small note: Sorry this chapters so short, this next few will be longer :). I love the comments from everyone, they really are inspiring. Keep them coming :). I'm still working on my new story, I haven't posted it yet because I'm not entirely happy with it yet, so I'll keep to posted on that :)

Thanks again for all the wonderful comments :D.

Chapter 17: Letting Go

I'm starting a new story but don't worry this will still be my main one, hopefully i'll get the first few chapter up in the next few days :) Again, thanks for all the comments :D.

It keeps squashing up my writing at the bottom, sorry guys :(.

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Jen's POV

''You heard what I fucking said,'' Jordan spoke, getting right up into Carter's face. I knew that I'd have to expalin everything to him and I also knew that it'd make Jordan very mad. The guys standing further down the corridor obviously noticed the confrontation and made their way towards us.

''I think you better leave,'' Sid interjected whilst getting in the middle of Jordan and Carter. I watched as Carter shot me a look, one that told me this wasn't going to be the last I saw of him.

''Alright, alright, I'm going,'' Carter shook his head slowly and held his hands up which I noticed were extremely sweaty. I was surprised. This was not the Carter I knew. The Carter I knew never backed down from anything or anyone. I was also worried. Worried about what he had up his sleeve, I knew he was planning something, I just had to figure out what it was.

As Jordan turned to look at me, I could see that he was worried aswell, not worried about Carter but worried about me. My emotions were all over the place, and I burst into tears, for the second time in two consecutive days. What was happening to me? I never cried, not ever. As the tears streamed down my face like rapidly flowing river, I felt strong arms wrap themselves around me, I burried my head in his chest and let him hold me. We just stood there for what seemed like forever. It was at this point I realised, I was falling for him.

I looked at him and as he knew what I was thinking. He plainly told me to wait for him at his SUV after the game. That was it. I walked up the stairs making my way to the box, where I'd been told I was sitting. I sat down next to Liz.

''I'm so sorry Jen but your dad's doctor just called, he's only up to seeing one visitor tonight. I know you wanted to see him, too make sure he's ok for yourself but I'm sure he'll call tonight anyway,'' She said as I turned and looked at her, this news had no affect on me, our bond wasn't strong enough yet for me to care. This in itself was upsetting for me. I had no feeling towards him.

''Fine.'' I stated. No other words could be said.

I concentrated on the game infront of me, watching number 11 like a hawk. I could tell he was frustrated, he was skating with an intensity unmatched by any other player on the ice. It was a turn on, plain and simple. By the end of the game we had won, 3-1. Jordan getting a goal and an assist. I waited for around 10 minutes, just sitting in my seat, sipping some ice cold water from a bottle before making my way to the car park. He was already there, and the engine was running.

I got in and silently we drove, not daring to look in each others directions. I needed a release. I knew exactly what I wanted.

''Take me to your appartment,'' I said. Trying to make clear what I wanted. I was emotional and I needed to get it all out in the only way I knew how.

''I think we should talk about what happened,'' He looked at me with an unreadable expression on his face.

''You don't understand, I deal with things this way.'' His eyes were concentrated on the road, he made no attempt at replying but I hoped he caught my drift.

Following the route to his front door, the same one we had taken the night before. We entered his appartment. I slid off my shoes and jacket, him doing the same. He walked up the hallway to the familiar bedroom.

He looked at me, in his eyes I saw compassion, he wanted me but not in a hungry way. He moved towards me painfully slowly. Brushing a small strand from behind my ear, I felt him nibbled at my ear.

''Let's do this the right way,'' His breath was hot and it made me moan just feeling him so close to me. He caught my moan in a kiss so passionate, I was sure I'd never feel something like this ever again. I wrapped my arms around his neck, running them through his hair. He brought a hand up and brushed my cheek.

''You are so beautiful.'' He whispered softly.

Chapter 16: Destruction.

Hey guys, well school stops in a little over a week, so i'll be able to write a whole lot more :D.



LOVE the comments :) Keep them coming :D.



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Jordan's POV

When she turned around to look at the man standing behind Lily, who worked at front desk, her smile faded. She stopped dead. I could see the look of sadness in her eyes. For a moment I thought she was going to pass out, but I could tell she was gathering her thoughts together, trying to figure out what to do. I could see the man behind her smirking at her, although I didn't know who he was, I knew she couldn't of been expecting him. He stood at around 6''1 tall, wearing black dress pants & a white shirt with his top button undone, a suit jacket drapped over one of his arms. He looked smug, I hated that.

Jen's POV

I was trying to work out how on Earth he had the nerve to come after me- knowing what he did . . . . . . . . . . .

Flashback . .

I ran. Taking off my shoes, and not stopping till I was back in my own appartment. Setting myself down on the couch and crying. Tears flowing like a river down my face, I couldn't help it. I trusted him, I trusted her and they both betrayed me. I heard a knock at the door, I figured it would be my mother, she was always forgeting her keys. Drying my eyes, I opened the door.

''Hey sweetheart, I think we need to have little chat,'' Carter said as he barged his way past me.

''GET THE FUCK OUT!'' I screamed at him, not caring if anyone heard.

''What did you just say?'' He said with agression in his eyes.

''You fucking heard me,'' I said.

As the words left my mouth he darted at me, dragging me by the hair further into my appartment.

''You better not say a word to anyone, princess,'' He spat as he held me up against the wall, his body crushing into mine. He pushed his lips to mine and I bit his bottom lip. I knew I was aggrevating him. He grabbed onto my wrists, throwing me across the room. Sending me hurtling into my oak wood coffee table. He made a run towards me, shoving his foot into my right side, I couldn't breath! Repeatedly kicking me at least 5 times. He got down on his knees and pressed his face to mine.

''Not a word,'' He whispered whilst tapping my cheek. Images running through my head, moments with my family, friends and even him. I thought this was it, I was surely going to die.

''Jen. Jen, are you awake?'' I heard as I slowly opened my eyes. I heard a beeping noise, and saw my family surrounding me.

''Mmmm, where am I?'' I said gruffly, I probably had half a dozen painkillers working on me.

''In hospital honey, you were attacked, we think it was a burglar,'' My mom said, she believed this but I knew the truth.

End of Flashback.

He approached me and pulled me into a hug. I tensed up immediately. He knew he was getting to me and he was probably loving it.

''Stay away from me,'' I said as calmly as I could. Thinking that getting angry would only send him into a rage. He didn't move. I looked at Jordan hoping he could see the pain filling my eyes. The tears were starting to fall. I was weak.

''Back off.'' Jordan stated. Carter just turned to look at him. I was worried, Carter had always been the jealous type, if he smelled even a hint of affection between Jordan and I, it would set him off.

''Excuse me?'' Carter spat. I knew this wasn't going to end peacefully . . . . . . . . .

Chapter 15: The Past.

Just a short update, i'm a little busy tonight with homework.

Thanks guys for all the comments, they just make me want to continue writing :).

Also, way to go pens :).

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Jen's POV

The look of pure jealousy in Jordan's eyes made me want to go over there push him up against the wall and have him right there and then but I wanted to get him going. So I casually walked by him and looked at him, undressing him with my eyes and he locked my gaze. I motioned for him to follow me, I turned not bothering to look back and see if he had risen, I knew he couldn't resist me, although I was also sure he knew I couldn't resist him either.

Walking down the corridor I had strolled along not a few minutes earlier, I heard a someone call my name, I turned.

''Miss Bylsma, theres someone here to see you,'' I looked at the small woman and then I saw a familiar face behind her, someone I thought I had left behind.

Flashback

''Are you sure your going to be ok? Its a getting dark.'' my friend Fiona said to me as she walk into the lobby of her building.

''Sweetie, I'll be fine. It only 3 blocks away,'' I replied, knowing she was the type who would worry until I called her the next morning.

Walking the three blocks to my boyfriends appartment, I though about how lucky I was. I had an amazing boyfriend, a picture perfect house and the best friend any girl could want. Her name was Francesca, she was stunning but she knew it, she was always there for me but whenever a guy was around, she became very flirtacious, this was something that had always annoyed me.

I reached Carter's building, I was way to early for our supper, but I decided I would surprise him, he'd always liked surprises. Getting in the elevator and pushing the button for the 23rd floor, I couldn't wait to see him.

Putting the key he had given me at Christmas time in the lock, I turned the key and walked a few paces in. There they were. On the rug infront of the blazing fire, him on top of her. They stopped. Looked. Then I ran.

End of Flashback

''Hey Jenny, long time no see,'' The man said. I guess I was the one being surprised tonight . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

GO PENS !!!

Just had to post a little something of my own to celebrate the Pens winning the Stanley Cup!

Absolutely amazing, I was on the edge of my seat for the whole game, actually screaming at the tv, haha!

WOOO! GO PENS !!!!!!

Chapter 14: Surprises.

Ok, so I was sitting in English today and I was talking to one of my friends Louise and an idea for a new story came to me, but I've decided to continue with this and post the new story once I've got to maybe chapter 30 on this one. I think writing two stories just now might distract me from this one, which I wouldn't want happening, what do you guys think?


Thanks for all the amazing comments, they make me want to just sit and write all day but sadly I can't, school stops in two and a half weeks though then I'll have alot more time to write. Thanks again for the comments :D.

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Jordan's POV

Well that didn't exactly go to plan. Understatement of the century there, Jordan. I checked the time 2:08am. I have an early practice tomorow morning, brilliant. I wonder who'll take it now coach is in hospital? We've got a game tomorow night aswell. Shit, that means Jen will be there. I guess she does have a right to be angry. I just let her walk out, but on the other hand I came straight over in the middle of the night and I scaled a tree for her. I feel like I should stand my ground on this one but knowing the way she makes me feel when she walks into a room, I know I have no chance of winning with her.

Jen's POV

Waking up the next morning having had a restless nights sleep, I was strangely happy. Jumping out of bed and slipping on a robe, I put in my earphones and turned on my ipod, immediately playing 'Good Girls Go Bad By Cobra Starship'. I was dancing around my bedroom and shuffling around the upstairs hall, dancing down the stairs and into the kitchen. Putting bread in the toaster and still shaking my ass, I turned round only to find half the Pittsburgh Penguins in my sitting around the table, at that point they all burst out laughing. I could feel my face burning.

''What? Have you never done that before?'' I asked with a smile on my face. I knew that at least half the men in the room probably did it before a game. I was sure that the Rangers did it aswell.

''All the time,'' A guy I recalled as being called Max sayed with a smile and wink on his face.

I turned and walked back out the door, deciding that now I probably couldn't go back in and get my toast. I did however notice that Jordan was missing. Guess he's a little scared of me after last night. I fell back into bed, falling back into a deep sleep. Around 4pm I was awoken by Liz.

''Your dad won't be out of hospital for another few days, but he wants you to go the game tonight, we'll stop by the hospital after it.'' She spoke in quiet manner, but I could tell she still very worried about him, as was I.

''Jordan's a bad boy, make sure you don't get hurt. Although that sort of guy has always turned me on!'' She sayed as she began to turn and leave. As she passed through the door she turned again giving me a glowing smile, at that point I knew. Liz and I would become great friends.

Drifting in and out of sleep, I finally decided to get up and looking at the time I woke up not a minute to soon, it was 6:00pm! We were leaving at 6:30, running into the shower and quickly washing my hair and body. I dried and straightened my hair, threw on jeans, a shirt, leaving a few buttons open, but not too many, and pushing on a pair of tan heels. I was surprised at how I looked, I had no make-up on and I didn't look half bad.

Arriving at the arena I left Liz and she told me go on into the locker room. I saw what I assumed were the wives and girlfriends turn and look at me with sympathetic smiles. I was thankful when Sid shouted me over.

''Are you ok?'' He spoke softly with a worried look on his.

''I'm ok,'' I replied as brought me into a warm hug, pressing his body into mine, and somehow I felt the urge to do the same.

I turned and saw those blue eyes piercing into me from across the room.

Jordan's POV

I saw her walk into the room and Sid immediately shouted her over. I was sure he had a thing for her. Only my heart raced and I felt a feeling of jealousy when I saw him pull her into a hug, that was when she turned and saw me staring at them. She began walking my way, I had to say something. I grabbed onto her arm.

''We need to talk,'' I said, sure she could see the jealousy seething out of me, she turned, winked and motioned for me to follow her . . . . . . . . . . . . .

Chapter 13: Standing Up.

Thanks for the ideas :D! Love the comments keep them coming :). Just a short update to fill the gap between my next big update, I'm quite excited about chapter 14 :D.

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''What the hell do you think your doing?'' I shouted at him. He obviously thought he could just walk in and I would just roll over. Well he had another thing coming, there was no way on earth that he was getting away with practically ignoring me when his friends arrived. What kind of person does that? Just looks at you and lets you walk out into the street, by yourself at 12am. Anything could of happened to me!


''Well I did come to apologise but if thats your attitude then I don't think I'll bother.'' He sayed. Wtf. He's giving me a hard time for having a fucking attitude when he was so ignorant towards me.


''Are you kidding me right now? You think I have an attitude then clearly you need to take a good look in the mirror. I think you should leave. NOW!'' I heard myself say forcefully enough to make him see that I was serious.


''You know what, I don't know why I bothered wasting my time with you. Your beautiful but a fucking psycho bitch. Call me when you see your therapist or something!'' He retaliated. I was mad now. He had the nerve to say a thing like that.


''You think I don't have enough to deal with? My dad nearly died and you come in here, all high and mighty, calling me a psycho! You obviously though I'd just forgive you, well sweetie you got another thing coming!'' I sayed with a little smirk on my face. I was not about to let him win this battle. I began pushing him out of the room and trying to get him down the stairs, all the while trying to hold my towel up.


''I'm going, theres no need to man handle me out the door, but seriously though - call me when your back in normal mode,'' He sayed whilst backing out the front door, turning around with a wink and slamming the door behind him.


Ughhhhhh!! He thought that was just a game, well one things for sure - I will NOT be calling him anytime soon. Returning to my room and pulling on shorts and a tank top, blew out the candles and unplugged the bath. I slid into bed and shut my eyes, knowing that a certain boy would more than likely plague my dreams tonight . . . . . . . .

Chapter 12: Explanation.

Thanks for all the great comments on chapter 11, there really inspiring keep them coming :) Just want to mention Jessie over at ''A Perfectly Good Heart'' she's been brilliant & she's an extremely talented writer :D.

Ughh, why does the text keep scrunching up, again I apologise.

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''Shit, what are we gonna do!'' Jordan sayed, sitting up in alarm. I guess he wasn't expecting anyone.

''Just stay calm, go through & we'll act like we were just watching a movie,'' I said. He began shaking his head making me wonder what he was thinking.

''It's Max, he'll never believe me, he's all about women, he'll figure out exactly what we were doing.'' He countered, I could tell he was worried.




Getting up and pulling on my top, I looked at him expectantly. He didn't even look in my direction. Just got up & walked on through, I could hear him and a few other voices chatting away, it made me mad that he'd just left me through here. I decided i'd wander on through and see what the boys would say about my being here.

''Hey Jordan, I've called a cab - I'll see you sometime, maybe we can continue our little discussion,'' I said with a little smirk on my face, whilst walking toward him. Seeing the rage in his eyes, I decided it was better for me just to go to the door and walk the few streets it was to my house, it was dark but I need time to think.

Jordan's POV

I couldn't work out what to do so I just got up and left her in my room. I had just broken up with Heather and I didn't want the guys to see Jen as the rebound girl because she was far from it. Max had sayed he'd ordered pizza and thats when she walked through into the kitchen, looking exceedingly glamorous considering what we'd just been mid-way through doing. With a develish grin on her face, she said bye and that she'd called a cab, with that she left.

''Dude, thats fucking brilliant, fucking the coach's daughter, that was my plan,'' Max responded in an excited tone whilst looking at me with bright eyes, I knew he wanted details but there was nothing to tell.

I felt a little disappointed in myself for letting her just walk out like that. I knew no matter what, I'd go round there tonight, whether it was 1am or 5am, I had to apologise.

''You've got to go guys, I need to sort something out.'' I said whilst ushering the guys out of my appartment, following them as they went. With a mix of moans and protests they left and I got in my car - I knew exactly where I was headed.

Jen's POV

I can't believe he didn't even offer to give me a ride home, I guess he's too selfish to think about anyone else. Although I had been quite enjoying what we'd started but I couldn't help thinking back and dwelling on the feeling that i'd wanted to stop, I wasn't quite sure what I wanted but I knew when the right time came - I'd know. Walking into the empty house, I walked into my en-suite and lit candles around the jacuzzi bath, next to the shower & ran the water. Silently getting in amongst the bubbles.

Jordan's POV

Arriving at the house, I noticed a car in the drive way, knowing that if someone was in they would disapprove of me being here at this time, which was 2:23 am. Trying to remember the lay-out of the house, I figured Jen would be in the spare room. I walked round, and saw it. The large tree the hung over the small balcony of the room. I began to climb feeling like I was scaling a large mountain, jumping over the wall of the balcony and in through the unlocked door. I saw nobody. Then I heard a loud breathing noise coming from the bathroom. I knocked on the door.

Jen's POV

I must of fallen asleep because I was awoken by a noise on the other side of the door, and then a tapping on the top of the wooden door. Jumping out of the bath and wrapping a towel loosely around myself I opened it and there he was.

''Nice outfit,'' He said with a look in his eyes that made me shiver with excitement . . . . . . . . . . . .

Chapter 11:Unsure.

I've been having major writers block :(. I apoligise if it's not my best work so far :( but I hope yous like it :). Comments are greatly appreciated :D.

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Jordan's POV

As we drove along thoughts buzzed through my brain but everything stopped as I felt her run a hand along the inside of my thigh. I kept my eyes on the road because I knew if I didn't I'd end up losing control. Her hand continued up my side and reached my neck, stopping and rubbing. Hitting my sweet spot just where my shoulder meets my neck, I moaned. She knew she was getting to me. She kept her hand there until I moved it away and tenderly kissed each finger individually. Sucking a little harder on the tip of each one as I went. It was my turn now.

Jen's POV

As he worked on my fingers I felt myself shivering. Control yourself. He let my hand go and brushed his manly fingers against my leg, running his hand up and down it. Doing exactly what I had done to him. He moved to my side and ran a hand down, lingering a little longer at certain places. Even at that I could feel myself getting hot. Coming to a halt at what I could only assume was his appartment block I jumped out of the car and followed him to the entrance. The elevator doors opened and inward we went. I kept my head down and we stood at different sides of the box we were in. I lifted my head risking a glance at his stunning features before looking back at the ground. God, he's gorgeous. It wasn't enough I had to see him again. And so I did only this time he was doing the same and I looked into his eyes - seeing intensity that scared the hell out of me. ''Fuck.'' he said as hee moved swiftly towards me picking me up and pushing me hard up against the wall, my legs instinctively wrapping around his hips. He pushed his mouth to mine so passionately I knew I never wanted this to end. His tongue traced my bottom lip, asking for entry, I granted it. My head was spinning wondering how any man could drive me this crazy. As the ping! rang out we blindly exited the elevator and he carried me easily to his appartment as I kissed his jaw delicately. Even his strength was turning me on.

Jordan's POV

She was driving me crazy, I fiddled with the keys to my appartment eventually managing to open the door. I swung her round, closing the door with her back. I needed to touch her, my hands roamed her top but she halted me just below her bra. ''Lets got to the bedroom.'' As soon as I heard those words I thanked god for making women. I sat her down on the bed as she pulled off her top, I got on top of her, loving the way she felt below me. I kissed her again, wanting to connect our bodies.

Jen's POV

I was unsure if this was what I wanted but the look in his eyes made me wanted to continue. I slipped his t-shirt over his head, not believing what I was seeing. His body was beautiful. I traced every line of his abs, taking in every little bit of him. He began trailing tender kisses from the nape of my neck, along my jaw line, making me squirm. I was beginning to doubt my decision to come her. Then I heard a banging noise. ''Hey Staalsy, we brought beer, get your ass in the kitchen!'' A mans voice said. ''I knew it was to good to be true, maybe we're not ready for this yet,'' Jordan mumbled in my ear. What was he talking about? Was that a feeling of relief that came over me - us having to stop? How were we going to explain this situation . . . . . . . .

Chapter 10: Thinking it Over.

This chapter is mostly about Jen and Jordan's thoughts and feeling towards each other, giving a clearer view into their thoughts because I felt I wasn't being clear on their view on things. Hope you like it :) Leave some comments just to let me know someones reading it lols :).

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''I'm going back inside but we'll talk soon, right?'' I questioned half wondering that if he said no would it hurt me? or would it be a little relief that he was one less person I wouldn't have to deal with.

''Yea, I'm sure i'll see you at the arena soon,'' He said while turning and walking back towards his car. I could hear the disappointment in his voice, I think he wanted me to go with him but I couldn't - simple as that.

A part of me wanted to let him in. Somehow my heart was willing but my head was telling a whole different story. I had never been in a proper relationship before, partly because I was afraid of putting myself in a situation where I could get hurt. I had been broken, once and only once before and I wasn't prepared for it to happen again. I fell in love with a boy who I knew only wanted a fling but I fell deeper and deeper until one day he pulled my world out from under me and broke my heart into tiny pieces. Cheating on me with my best friend. From that day on I couldn't trust anyone, not even my closest friends.

In the short period of time I had known Jordan, I was certain about two things. The fact that everytime I saw him I got butterflies and little acrobats jumping up and down in the pit of stomach. And to be quite frank with the second one, I wanted him. I couldn't lie to myself and this was the truth I Wanted Him. I knew it and I was almost sure he did too. But was I willing to put myself on the line for him? I suppose what they say is true - love grows with time. I had decided that I was going to take a risk - you only live once.

Jordan's POV

I was disappointed. She basically brushed me off back there. Although I had to understand what she was going through, her father and my coach being seriously ill in hospital, I had to back off and give her time. One good thing had come of this night though, I was well rid of Heather, no doubt she'd try to worm her way back in at some point but just now she was out of my life and I was definately happy about that.

I decided giving Jen space was the right thing to do. No matter how much I wanted her, I had to let her breath or else she'd only resent me for it later. Thinking this didn't supress the urge to turn back, take her home and have my way with her. It was all I could think about, all I wanted to do at this moment in time. I was being totally selfish but I didn't care. Jordan, you'll get her soon, just calm down. And there it was, that little voice in my head telling me to keep driving, go home and take a shower - a very cold one.

At that point I saw someone running up behind my car as I waited to get out of the parking lot. The passengers side door opened and there she was.

''You forgot to say goodbye,'' She said getting into the car with a little smirk on her face and a sparkle in her eyes . . . . . . . . . . . . .

Chapter 9: Disaster

This is quite a short chapter, I'm just back from Ireland and I'm very tired but I wanted to post an update because I haven't updated in a few days. Expect 2 longer chapters on Tuesday as I don't have school and I'm planning to write quite a bit :D. Thanks again for the comments there greatly appreciated, keep them coming :).

Again sorry for the speaking parts, it keeps squishing all the words up :(.

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As she spoke those words images flashed through my eyes and thoughts filled my head.

''Whh..att happened?'' I said.

''It's your dad, he was on his way to pick you up and he got hit side on by a drunk driver, you have to come to the hospital now!'' She exclaimed.

''Is he ok?!! I can get someone to take me.'' I barely managed to string a sentence together. I had only just met my father and now I had to face the possibility of him being taken from me again.

''It's touch and go, just get here!'' Liz said loudly, I could hear the despair in her voice. I couldn't face listening to her and hung up. I was overwhelmed with pain, something I hadn't felt before. I think they call it grief.

Jordan's POV

When she answered her phone, her face turned a shade of white I'd never seen before. I knew something was wrong and as she spoke the words ''Is he ok?'' they just seemed to confirm what I was thinking.

''Speak to me Jen! Whats happened???'' I heard myself saying.

''The hospital, I need to get to the hospital!! My dad's been in an accident.'' She said.

''I'll take you,'' I heard someone say from behind me, I could only assume it was Sid.

''No! I will,'' The words sprinted out of my mouth.

She seemed to know that I wasn't up for argueing and nodded at me knowing that I wanted to be there for her. I had only met this girl a week ago and I was already feeling a strong connection to her. As we got in the car in complete silence my thoughts were running a mock. This wasn't the time for me to make a move but I couldn't stop my eyes from glancing at her, flowing over her gorgeous body.

Jen's POV

I was glad when Jordan offered to take me to the hospital. Don't get me wrong I like Sid but I felt comfortable around Jordan. As we walked over to his car and got in, my thoughts switched from my fathers health to Jordan. I caught him looking at me, at first I thought he was looking at me in a concerned manner but as his eyes drifted over my body lingering a little too long in certain places - I decided he was infact checking me out. STOP! Jen, your fathers in hospital and your thinking a stupid guy!

''I think thats Liz standing over there,'' Jordan said whilst pulling into a parking space next to the entrance. I opened the door and ran over to where she was standing.

''Is there any news?!!'' I said erracticaly, waiting for the answer I was praying for.

''Hes going to be ok. He's got a punctured lung, and fractured collar bone but the doctors think he'll make a full recovery.'' Liz said. There it was, exactly what I wanted to hear.

''He's going to get better!'' I blurted out whilst running to Jordan, jumping into his arms before I realised what I was doing. I knew we had a lot to talk about . . . . . . .

Chapter 8: Uncomfortable Truths

Hey :) Sorry for the long wait for the update. I've been really busy lately but I hope you guys like it :D. I'm flying to Ireland on Thursday for my aunts wedding so hopefully i'll get an update posted before then :). Please leave comments with your opinions 8-).

It won't let me space things properly : So excuse the fact that all the talking is scrunched up, it's extremely frustrating.

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Just being there with him made me feel like everything was going to be ok. Even though inside I knew that they really weren't. As the hot tears slid down my face, I turned and looked at him. Staring back at me was a lost little boy, looking for the right direction to go in. I knew he was going to have to choose between Heather and I. I didn't want to force that choice upon him but the way I felt at that moment I knew I couldn't share him with another woman. She probably loved him - who was I kidding? To her, he had $$$ written across his forehead.

''She doesn't love you.'' I found myself blurting out. My thoughts had just come pouring out of my mouth. He nodded in reply. Perhaps he would break up with her and we'd be together? Yea ok, stop kidding yourself.

Jordan's POV

''She doesn't love you.'' Jen randomly said. My heart lept into action. Seeing her crying infront of me pulled at my heart strings. I knew Heather didn't love me but she was a nice girl and I didn't want to hurt her. Although thinking about it, my family didn't like her and she was always forcing me to buy her things. She was always making me feel guilty for being away so often and was never there when I needed her support. I had made my mind up, I was breaking up with her. Doing it for me not because I had an uncontrollable desire for someone else.

''Give me 10 minutes, stay here, do not move,'' I said, getting up and looking at Jen. She just looked at me with those beautiful eyes and I knew she understood what I was about to do.

Running downstairs to where Heather and Sid were still sitting. I walked into the room and looked directly at her.

''We need to talk. In the kitchen.'' I said calmly but sternly. Looking her straight in the eyes at the same time.

''Yea, in a minute babe,'' She said sweetly giving me her puppy dog eyes that usually worked on me but not this time.

''No. Now.'' I said showing authority in my voice. I never spoke to anyone like this but somehow this situation justified the tone I was using. Looking at me with a worried look in her eyes she got up and followed me into the kitchen. Sid just looked at me - he was speechless.

''Usually I'd sit down and talk to you but I'm getting straight the point. It's over. Has been for a long while. We just never admitted to each other. I suggest you leave and don't call me again - ever!'' Ok, so maybe I'd been a little harsh but she'd been using me for my money for the past year.

''Whats brought this on sweetie?'' She said trying to weasel her way out of the situation.

''Nothing, I just realised something.'' I said bluntly.

''Wait a minute, it's that bitch upstairs isn't it? She's fucking said something!'' Heather screamed in my face.

Jen's POV

I heard screaming downstairs and overheard reference to me. I wasn't just going to stand by and let her say things about me and not stick up for myself. I darted downstairs.

''I'm a bitch? You obviously need to take a good hard look in the mirror, hunny,'' I shouted in a sarcastic tone. Jordan was looking at me with pleading eyes. I could tell he didn't like all the shouting. Just as Heather turned, ready to hit me - my phone rang.

''Hello,'' I said.

''Jen, it's Liz, theres been an accident . . . . ''